Friday, October 24, 2008

Losing hair by the handful

well, Wed Oct. 22, 14 days after chemo #1, just like my Onc. told me. There is was in my hands in the shower, getting ready for my 2nd chemo treatment. I cried a little and got a grip. Then at the Onc. office waiting, I looked in the mirror to just run my fingers through it and it was flying out. Chad grabbed a wad from the back of my head and that did it. I bawled like a baby. After a minute I felt kind of stupid, I know I am so much more fortunate than so many others. I have so much to be hopeful for, I decided to get my head shaved. I have the wig and wear hats a lot the last two days, just to keep it from getting all over. So, now that I'm dealing with the reality of hair loss now, I can't wait for it to just be gone and over with. I feel OK though, other than really tired. Chad will pick up Brady from school at 3:30 and then I will go take a little nap until supper time. I know I'm blessed. I think my oldest one Brandon, 17, who lives with my mother is taking things hard. He doesn't talk about it much, and when I bring up chemo, or going bald, ( I joke about things a lot) he wants to change the subject. Although, my mom told me that once when she was crying about me, he said "Don't you know my mom's a soldier, she's gonna be fine." I told him he's made me the strong person I am today. He's been through, and put me through a lot. He is suppose to join Job Corp., hopefully, Nov. 1. Please pray this works out, it is my last bit of hope that he will be OK. By OK, I mean able to function in society, have a home, job, car and stay out of trouble, jail or worse. Well, it's almost time for my nap. I'll check in later. Thank to everyone for your support. I love you all.


Oma aka Meme said...

praying for you today- I wish the hair would just kind of come out gradually rather than the way it does- but hang in there as this too shall pass and maybe you will get a new color and a new type of hair when it revisits you- God will surprize you - I hope that you had a good rest and know that we are here ready to stand in the gap with prayers - hugs Meme

Cora from Nelia's Primitive Place said...

Stacy, I remember when my hair started falling out! I didn't cry, but it seemed to be a reality check, for sure, that the chemo was definitely running through my body and it wasn't water in those drip bags!!!!! I'm kind of used to my head being bald -- in fact, a few times, I almost went out without my hat! Wonder what the world out there would have thought???? I do know, when I shower, that my head is freezing cold when I get out! Be prepared for that!

Always praying for you --- and for your son!

Love ya,

Kay @ The Rustic Cottage said...

Stacy - so glad to see a post from you! I checked every day to see how you were doing and was getting worried.

From what others have said losing your hair is one of the hardest things to deal with in all this. You are a brave soldier and I know you made the right decision to shave it off.

I'm praying for you daily.

Love and hugs,