Thursday, December 4, 2008

well, I just noticed that I haven't check in for a while. Busy, tired, life, you know. I finished my A/C chemo and have started my Paclitaxel yesterday. I was told the side affects weren't as bad as A/C. I am achy tonight, but that's from the Neulasta. I'm tired and grouchy. I feel sorry for my family the first few days after each chemo. I don't like myself that much, and now the snow starts. I absolutely hate, (and I don't use that word unless I mean it) driving in the snow. I get panic attacks if there is snow or ice on the road. It doesn't matter how little there is, I hate it. Well, enough negativity. I do think it's very beautiful from my window, if I have no where to go.
Back to the treatment. I had an MRI Mon. 12/1. The tumor board hasn't officially met. They will meed tomorrow, but my Onc. talked to one of the members yesterday before my chemo and the bigger tumor is still showing shrinkage, but the two smaller ones don't "seem" to be any smaller, so I will continue with this chemo and another MRI to check progress. If they don't start to grow we will do surgery after completion of chemo. If they actually start to grow, we will obviously need to do surgery, then finish chemo. Let's pray they respond better to the taxel. Thanks to all of you who are helping me pray for this. I am getting a little frustrated, just a little. I refused to give in to negativity. All of you are such a big help. Thank you. Have a great holiday.